14. September 2011 14:31
The past year has been quite a journey for me, and I expect that the trip is nowhere near over. As I read the book of Ecclesiastes recently, I was reminded again about how even the wisest man who ever lived had to walk a path full of "wrong turns" in order to get to the destination. Solomon tested knowledge, pleasure, power, and a host of other sources for the meaningful life that his heart ached for, but in the end, here's what he comes to:
Now all has been heard; here is the conclusion of the matter: Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the duty of all mankind. (Ecclesiastes 12)
I believe that. Wholeheartedly. The search for "life" ends in God. There is nothing else that will fulfil, noone else who can validate us (me) to a place where it's all "worthwhile."
I've also come to understand my role in this life. Well, that may be a bit bold. Certainly, ... [More]
25. November 2010 21:57
I like this one.
My attitude is definitely under development... under construction. So many things have been identified that need to be torn down, and many things that need to be built in their place have become clear. I've severed some relationship ties, cut some ties that have held me back or added nothing to my life except stress and aggravation. I've set aside some habits and established some new ones. I've begun to recognize failure as not something to be feared, but to be accepted, embraced as part of the plan, and used as a powerful motivator toward success.
It's still at an awkward stage, because much of this is theoretical for me and not all that practical. That or it's so practical that I haven't always made room for the flexibility that must be built in. But it's developing.
My attitude of myself is changing much. I believe in me. I believe in my potential. I believe that I have something to offer, and that what I have to offer has value.
I believe in others, but the fac... [More]
25. November 2010 19:46
This is a tough one. I see so much potential. I have several specific goals, both for my business/professional life and for my personal life. Some of them even cross that imaginary line and affect all of my life. A few of them I've put into goal planning sheets, and some others I've just stepped up and done because I knew they needed to just be stood up to and done. But then there's the ones I know will take a lot of work, a lot of planning, and a good plan that could very well fail. I'm much more comfortable dreaming and even prioritizing dreams than I am turning them into actionable plans.
I want so much more right now. I see the way to get there. But I often feel I'm going at it alone. I know I have friends, I have a coach, I even have customers that will sit down and give me advice. I have a God that has plans and a future for me, and that also sets steps before to take that lead to that plan and that future. But the question that gets me still seems to be, how to I get from her... [More]
2. September 2010 22:47
I'm in one of those seasons of life where tiredness, and even exhaustion, is more than something felt more than at certain points of the day... it's more of a permanent state of mind. A big part of it, I'm sure, is the "role" I've taken on as "family-member-with-the-1AM-to-6AM-feeding-shift." Add to that some significant focus on planning and changing my business model, a coaching role that can easily take up 1-2 hours a day, and then all the other stuff that comes with being a man, husband, and father. Oh, and then all those things that tug at my heart with signifance beyond my own little world.
But that's not what's captured my attention.
What's captured my attention is that even though I'm averaging 4-6 hours of sleep a night, almost guaranteed to be interupted at some point... when that moment of interuption comes, I'm up, awake, and ready to go. But a few months ago, before the baby was born and my sleep was only stopped by an alarm clock or a body finally rested enough to wak... [More]